Thursday, March 26, 2015

Keep looking for the Joy

I am trying to figure out how I can still have peace yet feel such discouragement.
Today was the long awaited appt with the Orthopedic Dr.
I have been a bit stressed this week knowing there are several important things coming together at the same time, or at least, Possibly !
 Thankful that there was grace for my plans today, was a start to a good day.  Then, we found a parking spot right near the entrance to the Dr. which was just another little joy giver.   Jerry checked in and they whisked him off to do some new Xrays.  Things were just so efficient, I was pleased.    Jerry fashioning blue paper shorts as he wobbled off to xray,  well, that was a bonus joygiver today ;)

He is being seen at the military hospital.  There is something unique about sitting in a waiting room with Veterans and Active duty  and spouses that just brings honor to your heart. Plus , being in a medical facility brings back such good memories for me of my time working in the clinics.  Those memories are for another story , though ;)

After seeing the Orthopedic Surgeon, many new things have came up.  The nerve function in his hands could be triggered by several different things, which must be checked into.  The back pain is still very much at the forefront of our concerns. After reviewing results,  The Dr. didn't see the severe injury we were expecting, at least not in his lower back.  He has some severe damage to his neck area of his spine . Which they sent him for more Xrays and have ordered another MRI.  The back pain, which seems to be the priority, only to us, is not showing enough signs of what is wrong with it to proceed with an effective treatment. Jerry needs to go back to Primary care and have some more tests and try some new meds for right now.  There are more hoops to go through to get things done effectively and timely with insurance (though I am beyond thankful that we have it).  So , right now the only new news we have is that he has more appts....

It is hard to keep positive tonight when I am tired of seeing him in pain, I want to trust the plan that is  unknown, but set before us.   I know I can, but for tonight its just a time to wonder why? and what's next ?
My mind is busy with to do lists for the next few days :

A friend is waiting on their little one to enter the world, I am excited to Doula for them, HUGE JOY GIVER !!
Tomorrow , I need to be able to focus and make phone calls and keep this process moving. Tomorrow , Isaia has an appt for some things going on with his speech delays
I am choosing to look for the Joy givers throughout the day.  Those keep my cup full, when I feel the joy is leaking out.
The sun was out today and it was so lovely.  That is a great joy -giver.
I need to find time to catch up at home, things have been allowed to slack around here and I have lost my motivation with Jerry home.
The fun days have been few and far between and I know getting my chaos turned into calm will allow time to make "fun" days again.
  • If you are praying with us 
  • Thank you for your Love and support
  • Thank you for your words of encouragement
  • Please pray for complete healing of Jerry's body.
  • Pray for wisdom with all the xrays to see the root cause of his pain
  • Pray for any nerve damage to be reversed
  • Pray for us to be Strong and Courageous through this journey
  • Pray we can get answers to Isaia's delays that will help unlock his struggle with his speech
  • Pray for me to get a handle on the things at home that need to be in order and be a JOYful mom  as we do it.
  • And that we can find some FUN family time opportunity after this week.
Thanks for coming along this journey with us :)
Love and Blessings,
Tammy 

   
   

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