At Christmas, Jerry injured his back and we realized that it was not going to be a quick fix. We have seen how God used that injury to bring change to Jerry's career and allowed us the opportunity to focus completely in trusting the Lord more and more. When you have stability, you are thankful for that stable routine day to day. When that stability, even if it was a little unknown each day, becomes rocked and not something to count on, you can feel troubles multiply. But you don't have to let troubles creep in and sink you. There is something so grand and peaceful having our trust in the Lord. He is constant, HE loves us unconditionally, He wants what is best for us. Having a vision beyond yourself , where you can focus on the true meaning of the journey changes the perspective. We can't meet our troubles with fear or we can get overwhelmed with all the what's? and Why's and How are we going to ..... ( I have slipped into those spots these past few months, BUT only for a few moments. BECAUSE, fear is a heavy burden which we can not carry around when we have so much to do.) I could not focus on being the Wife, Mom, friend, teacher and all the other things that I need to be on a daily basis, if I spent my days worrying and living in fear. What a blessing to cast those thoughts into the hands of the Lord and TRUST his perfect plan.
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7
Well, its been a few weeks of waiting around here. Jerry has been doing Physical Therapy for his back and that has really helped alleviate some of the pain. The PT Dr. Has been great. He is also doing Occupational Therapy for his hands. His right hand has become worse with the numbing and the loss of use. He has trouble using utensils, and holding onto things. In the past week or so he is noticing more of the numbing coming across his left hand as well. We have been waiting for the MRI for his upper spine. We had that on Friday morning. By Friday night we had a message from the Orthopedic Dr asking us to call him on his cell Sat. Jerry spoke to him Sat morning and he said he wanted Jerry into Neurologist soon, he has 3 vertebrae constricting his spinal cord in his neck- cervical spine. By Sunday, the Neurologist called us and said he has Jerry scheduled for surgery in May and we are meeting with him next week. So, we have the next plan.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
Three months ago, the big problem was Jerry's back. We found joy in that pain by giving his body a break from Farrier work. There has been such peace knowing he would not go out and be injured again. I have been able to spend time with him that I have missed for many years. No more early mornings and late nights. There has been joy in this time of difficulty.
NOW, I have a new perspective again. Praise the Lord he injured his back, because if he had not, we would not have found out in time about his neck-spinal damage. Dr's calling on the weekend to speak to us , shows the concern they have and the care they have for their patients. We are thankful for the Medical team Jerry has been placed with . We appreciate the waiting, now he gets moved at a faster pace and we can see that because we know what its like to wait. So this new diagnosis can still bring JOY that they found it in the nic of time !!
The last few weeks have been filled with emotions. Watching Jerry become more alive than he has in months, thanks to the PT. He still has hard days, but he is moving around more, and that is a JOY GIVER..... AJ turned in all his paperwork for his Eagle Scout application :) He also turned 18 last week, where did the time go ? He was able to go down to Louisiana this week to visit my family....(here is a Mom emotion to share ): He had to be at the airport at 4 am, he was flying standby and so I was thinking I would just walk him in til he got to security... Well, Jerry decided to go along so I wouldn't be alone in the wee hours. Then he decided to drive, which was nice for a change. Well, as we arrived at the airport , he pulled up to the curb and said "Have a great time , Buddy! " My Mama heart just about sank, This was not my expectation and boy did I have to suck it up to give him a hug and say goodbye !! Jerry reminded me he is only gone a week, BUT in my mind, the next time it might not be a week. This boy has big dreams and one of these days he will lift his wings and soar. Needless to say , tears rolled down my cheek till the Tacoma Dome , then I could finally enjoy the rest of our morning ride together :)
Katie is becoming more confident and coming out of her quiet shell. Sarah, whom has struggled with her reading , has become unstoppable with a book in her hands at all hours. Isaia, is still our silly guy.. he is still having these strange "zaps" (so keep praying for answers to that one ) and is in a new stage with his speech , which we will be going to Children's hospital for assessments once things settle down, somewhat.
The Lord continues to provide for us, in all ways. Through many of your hands, we are beyond greatful. There is something so lovely about being in such a difficult season but having complete Peace. There is so many unknowns ahead and yet there is a Peace beyond all our understanding as we move forward in this journey. It reminds us that this is part of the plan, and HE is allowing this season to restore Jerry's health and our family time to prepare us for something greater. We are so in AWE of everything that has been happening these past months and how we are feeling so loved by the Lord and all of you. Thanks for coming alongside of us. I pray as we share this you will see the Joy that we see in these hard times. That even in the hard times, God is in control and his plan is perfect.
Please pray with us -
Praise the Lord that Jerry's back injury revealed this spinal damage !!!
Praise God that he continues to take care of all our needs.
Praise for all the family time we are having
That we would keep our eyes on Jesus, He is the Author of this story.
That we would cast all fears unto him, as soon as they creep in.
That Jerrys nerves will not get worse before we get in to Dr
That the pain would be alleviated
That the peace we have would continue to overflow
That we can continue to trust the Lord for all provisions
Pray for wisdom for the Neurosurgeon as he gathers the perfect team for the procedure
Thank you for all your Love and prayers, May the Lord's face shine upon each of you and Bless you .
Much Love,
Tammy and Jerry
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